No news on A, but C arrived safely!

I don't know where A is at this point. I haven't heard from him since last week. I did speak to his sister last night and they're worried about him too, so I know he's not back in Mexico yet or I'm sure his family would have heard from him. Still no idea when he'll have to go to immigration court or if I'll be notified of anything.

C is back safe in Israel. She called a few times her first night back, crying. But I spoke with her again tonight and she's doing better. It hurt to hear her say that she's glad she'll never see her father again. I hate knowing that she has so much anger. I worry that she won't get through it in a healthy way, being so far from home and family.

Thanks to a couple of online friends, we were able to get her some of the basics that she needed. Thank God!! That helped to lift her spirits. Although she didn't appreciate it when I joked that the bright side of all this is that we didn't have to worry about exceeding the weight limit for her luggage.

I've been kind of a wreck emotionally. The weight of it all is really dawning on me. I am so scared. I know that so many people in the world have problems much worse than I do. So I feel kind of guilty for feeling so devastated about everything that's happened the past few years in my family. But I just feel like I don't know how I'm going to be able to do this alone. I'm not strong enough, I'm not cut out for this. This isn't the way it was supposed to be. I can't do this. I just don't know how. I don't know how to make it easier for my children. I'm really tired and really scared.